Men suck. I think think they are all assholes.
Except my Dad of course. ;)
Let me begin with my friend S. S has been jawing about leaving her live in boyfriend forever. They broke up a couple of months ago and agreed to go there seperate ways as soon as she could save money for deposit and all that. He even agreed to pay $500 child support. Back in November I told her to start saving money. $20 here $50 there even $5 here and there will add up. But does she listen to me? No. So she obtained a full time job with decent pay and has good checks coming in now. Asshole ex-bf loses job and is sucking all the money out of her so now she can't move. He's dragging his feet on purpose. So I said, "just leave him. who cares if he has a job or not". She says she can't because she used all her paycheck on house bills. I really hate him. I hate him so much. He is violent with her. He screams at her and their child. She has had to lock herself into the guest room where she sleeps, twice in the last month because she is scared of his actions. I'm just tired of it. And this has been pretty much the story of their lifes for the last 5 years. I am starting to lose the energy to keep her spirits up and encourage her. My words don't do anything. She never takes my advice or any of are other friends. The worst part of all is that their son is 4 now. He is scared of his father. But that doesn't mean he isn't starting to portray some of the same actions as his father. Kid's pick this stuff up. They are ruining his life!
Second, my own fiance is trying my patience. I am so worked up from writing the S and ex-bf story that I don't have the energy to go into it. But I will just leave this comment from him that is the very top of my frustration. "Sometimes I don’t know why I even bother. I’m sick of busting my ass for you. It’s not worth the effort." Damn, and we aren't even married yet. Marriage takes alot of effort. He's not really making me feel he is up to the challenge. I don't see how we can make it through weekends blissfully happy and then Monday rolls around and we fight all week. He had mentioned something about S and her situation that I'm wondering if holds true with him. He said ex-boy won't let her move out because it's a control thing. He has to have control over her. During the weekend Brian and I are together the whole weekend. During the week I'm at work, he's at work. I go do stuff with friends some times. I don't know maybe he feels unable to control the relationship with us being apart? Just speculating.
Now that I think about it. It's always a control issue with all men. "I don't like you talking to him. I don't like you texting him. Why were you out so late? Why do you do stuff with her so much? I think you were flirting with ____. Do you have to drink everytime you go out with so and so? I don't like you smoking. I don't think you should wear that shirt to work. I don't like you out there dancing and having fun without me. I don't think you should listen to your friends advice about me. I don't think you should listen to that band anymore because it reminds me of your exboyfriend. I don't think you should spend your money on that." God damn!!!
Ok, so I'm going to try to find some place to go drink myself silly tonight. Like I wanna go home, ya know?
Let me begin with my friend S. S has been jawing about leaving her live in boyfriend forever. They broke up a couple of months ago and agreed to go there seperate ways as soon as she could save money for deposit and all that. He even agreed to pay $500 child support. Back in November I told her to start saving money. $20 here $50 there even $5 here and there will add up. But does she listen to me? No. So she obtained a full time job with decent pay and has good checks coming in now. Asshole ex-bf loses job and is sucking all the money out of her so now she can't move. He's dragging his feet on purpose. So I said, "just leave him. who cares if he has a job or not". She says she can't because she used all her paycheck on house bills. I really hate him. I hate him so much. He is violent with her. He screams at her and their child. She has had to lock herself into the guest room where she sleeps, twice in the last month because she is scared of his actions. I'm just tired of it. And this has been pretty much the story of their lifes for the last 5 years. I am starting to lose the energy to keep her spirits up and encourage her. My words don't do anything. She never takes my advice or any of are other friends. The worst part of all is that their son is 4 now. He is scared of his father. But that doesn't mean he isn't starting to portray some of the same actions as his father. Kid's pick this stuff up. They are ruining his life!
Second, my own fiance is trying my patience. I am so worked up from writing the S and ex-bf story that I don't have the energy to go into it. But I will just leave this comment from him that is the very top of my frustration. "Sometimes I don’t know why I even bother. I’m sick of busting my ass for you. It’s not worth the effort." Damn, and we aren't even married yet. Marriage takes alot of effort. He's not really making me feel he is up to the challenge. I don't see how we can make it through weekends blissfully happy and then Monday rolls around and we fight all week. He had mentioned something about S and her situation that I'm wondering if holds true with him. He said ex-boy won't let her move out because it's a control thing. He has to have control over her. During the weekend Brian and I are together the whole weekend. During the week I'm at work, he's at work. I go do stuff with friends some times. I don't know maybe he feels unable to control the relationship with us being apart? Just speculating.
Now that I think about it. It's always a control issue with all men. "I don't like you talking to him. I don't like you texting him. Why were you out so late? Why do you do stuff with her so much? I think you were flirting with ____. Do you have to drink everytime you go out with so and so? I don't like you smoking. I don't think you should wear that shirt to work. I don't like you out there dancing and having fun without me. I don't think you should listen to your friends advice about me. I don't think you should listen to that band anymore because it reminds me of your exboyfriend. I don't think you should spend your money on that." God damn!!!
Ok, so I'm going to try to find some place to go drink myself silly tonight. Like I wanna go home, ya know?
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