I'm here

I just don't feel very wordy. Quick recap
1/2 marathon time- 1:38:14
Place- 1st female overall
PR-4 minutes
5k time-21:20
place-3rd overall 1st age
degree of difficulty- ouch I think my cold and my monthly you know what was against me
I'm tapering. It is weird and it's freaking me out. What if I feel all dusty when I go to run on the 11th?
Water does not taste good lately. I have to figure out a way to force it down I think.
going to eat with Steph, Koby and Ron tomorrow night. yay!
Got Dallas Stars tickets for Friday but don't know if I want to go.
Tommy still hasn't come home. I did dream that he did though.

I'll think of something better to post tomorrow. ;)

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Leaving on a jet plane

I'm leaving for Florida again. The weather in Ft. Walton is going to be only a touch warmer then it is here. It kinda made packing difficult. I have to honestly say that I tried my best. For nine days I only brought 3 pairs of jeans (i'm seriously thinking that is a mistake) 3 pairs of running shorts, 3 sports bras, 4 tshirts, 4 long sleeve shirts, 4 short sleeve shirts, 7 pairs of underwear. Yes, I'm going to have to do laundry. Tan boots, flip flops, running shoes, 2 pairs of dress shoes.......ok maybe I did bring a lot. Anyway it should be fun but I am already feeling home sick. What if I can't drink when I want to? What if my dad has no food in the house? What if I miss my tv shows? What if I can't run when I want to and how far I want to? What if the bed is lumpy? I don't like feeling not in control of what is going to happen each day or even each hour. eeeek! I think there is a word for this. Plus I don't know how much access to a car I'll have so I'm going to be totally dependent on everyone else. Maybe I should pack my flask afterall...I think I'm going to need a few drinks...I think the liquor store is a mile walk. And there is a bar called the Early Bird about half a mile. It's a total dive and opens at 7am.

Wish me luck. I have a half marathon tomorrow! I may run it easy with my Dad and turn it into a 20 mile training run. Or I may race. If I decide to race I would like to finish 1:44 or better. That puts me right under a 8 minute pace.

Also pray for my cat. He still hasn't come home. I miss him alot and I hope wherever he is that he is safe.

Positive

I'm trying to embrace anything positive right now. I just got word that my friend Heidi that I've never met is going to be able to make it to run the half marathon at White Rock! I'm so excited! Her sister works with me and Heidi and I started talking on email about running for the last 4 months. I am really looking forward to meeting her. :)

Still no sign of him

Looking for him is killing me. For one, it is almost freezing out. Two, everytime I go back home empty handed without him, I am so devestated. I couldn't even finish my run this morning. I just went and sat on the stairs and cried. Today I should have got in a 8 mile run. I'm lucky if it's 5. I ran fairly slowly through the neighborhood calling for him. I honestly think I covered every street, nook and cranny within a mile. I just don't see him venturing any further. I get angry at my sister and my dad for having scheduled their weddings and making me go out of town this week. I honestly want to cancel. I just don't think I can leave until Tommy comes home.

Idiot Coworker is killing me today. She will not stop talking. Anyone who knows me has heard about her and knows what a freak she is. So today she is who I'm taking my frustration out on. Do you think that would shut her up? No. This is a conversation we just had.
ICO "i read an article and they say that an egg in the morning is better for you and burns more calories then those bagels you eat."
ME "I'm eating the bagels for the nutrients and the CARBS"
ICO "oh"
She just has no clue about nutrition. She sits over there eating Doritos, Gardettos and other highly processed foods with no nutrtional value. She never eats lunch. It's amazing to me.

The only good thing going right now is that Ron and all my friends are being very supportive. Everyone is concerned for Tommy and trying to be there for me.

I hope he comes home.

Stress

I just want to give up sometimes. I want to cut out all extra things and just do the bare minimum to get by. There is way too much going on lately. So of course it was a little tight until payday. I have my trip to Florida that includes two weddings. I had to wait until today to buy gifts and something to wear to the weddings. But today my cat ran away. Do you think I have the time or energy to concentrate on a gift or dress? NO. I don't. I don't even want to go now. I just want to cancel the whole sha-bang. I can't leave for 9 days with my cat missing. I have heard lots of stories of cats coming home after running away. Stephanie even said she had just moved and he ran away and still found her way back. So there is hope. But that cat didn't just magically find her way home. She had to have smelled her way. How is Tommy going to find me if I'm not even there? So I want to rush right over to Ron's when I get off work to go looking for Tommy. But now the weather has dropped drastically and I'm going to need a long sleeve shirt and my headband ear cover thing for my run in the morning. So I'll have to go to my place and get that first. I think I'm just going to do circles of the neighborhood over and over calling for Tommy and looking for him. I'll even leave the ipod at home so I can hear him if he meows back. I keep crying when I think about him and what it would be like without him. What if he is hurt or scared? I feel like Charlie Brown "SNOOPY COME HOME!!!!!!"

Fan Clubs

So what should a fan club give you? You pay a certain amount to have special benefits that the regular public can not get. With the Pat Green fan club you pay $30. You get a shirt or a hat, a keychain and a sticker. You also get meet and greet passes to pretty much any show. There are also some show where you get presale on tickets to shows. But don't expect to get it at a big show. Don't hold your breath for anything special. :( So after the whole ticket debacle I end up with 2.....not the 6 or 8 I would have liked in Section D. And this was only because another person just got lucky and somehow got them. Arggg. What a frustrating event! It really makes me think that fan clubs don't really do all that much. But I would have no problem paying $100 for a fan club to get front row or more of a advance sale. The problem with most presales is that radio stations get those too and take up alot! Alright, off my soap box. I actually have much more to bitch about but it's just now worth it. I'm going to see Pat Green and that's all that matters.

Whyamiinabadmoodihavenoreason

Ok so I don't know why but I'm in a bad mood. Shit that pisses me off:
Dentists, dental hygenists, construction,traffic, people calling me when they know I'm at work and can not answer the phone, not being able to read minds, needing fresh contacts, getting up at 6am on a saturday to run 18 miles so that I can be at a baby shower on time. grrrr, the little brat better arrive on time, not having groceries, not having a cheap grocery store nearby, balancing my checkbook, people who brag about how much money they make, insurance companies, coupons for bed bath and beyond that I never get to use, marble slab being closed when i get there, being tired every night at 8:30pm, falling asleep in the middle of a movie, falling asleep in the middle of a book, falling asleep in the middle of talking, falling asleep in the middle of sex.....(ok scratch that one. like I'd do that but you get the picture), doves (I hate those fucking birds. if you knew my ex the mister dove hunter himself you'd understand why. I do like the idea behind doves though....anway, man I'm starting to feel better already just venting), candy jar being empty (where did those candy corns go?), being out of toilet paper and not having time to go to the store EVER (so I'm stealing some from work shhhh), knowing that I won't get good seats to see Pat Green at Billy Bobs (can I not get some kind of reward for running my little ass off for the last 4 months?????),

Ok that is all for now. I am off to meet Sheila to return something at Macys, dinner and drinks. I have to run across the street to Hastys first to get some pre-drinks.

And it's 6. Bye.

Halloween candy

Is it wrong to be running and see a mini Hersheys laying on the ground and really really really want to bend down and pick it up. I mean, I need the energy right? I kept on going but it was very close.